Lovesick blues

I'm falling apart waiting for the phone to ring
For you to tell me "It's gonna be okay baby"
I cried the skin off my cheeks today
I spent my hour lunch break bawling like a baby
Sick at the thought of your disapproval 
My hearts a tangled mess
as I think of how much I love you
How I adore you
How could I have ever let you down?
I feel like a thousand twisting snakes are circling my soul
Squeezing myself into a knot of worry
I know I'm just gonna cry myself to sleep tonight
Waiting

Daddy's Girl

waits like  daddy's little girl...
Like a good girl should
Waiting for the flood
Like a flower 
Thirsty for the showers 
There's nothing colder than sleeping without you by my side 
Always wondered
Now it's real
This cowgirl howls
 a prairie song
 From her Texas heart
To yours
It was you the whole time
I never even saw this coming 
Love that's built to last
Good soil
To plant our seeds in
We can't be stopped
You've lit these fires in me
I love you forever

January 10, 2012

The universe keeps us at bay
My mind, heart and soul reels at the possibilities 
I'm ignited
By your spark
I love the way you are taking your time
You've brought something to the table worth my consideration
I will smooth you over as
You move in closer
  

Aldebaran the fiery eye of Taurus the bull

My deepest scars become stories etched in the history of life itself.

Dec 30, 2011

Swings bring a sense that I could fly.
Tonight the stars are bright
and the park is saturated with the sounds
from creaking branches swaying in the wind.
I see the little dipper and Polaris beneath Cassiopeia
small clouds are tearing into swirls
hauling with the speed of a fleet of ghost ships
 lonely vessa on the swing
 a ragamuffin getting ready 
to take flight 

Ace of Cups

Sugary words lashing 
Oh my wounded heart is so hopeful
Each lick makes my soul swell
This crush is like sweet water
Quenching, life giving
To this thirsty cowgirl
Texas sized palpitations
Pumping and raging
make my love grow 
Scarred and kicked
no way of knowing
If I'll be destroyed
If I'll be adored 
and in turn adore

Rusty cowgirl

Old dusty road
Babbling bubbling inner dialogue  crooked spine
 soul on fire
True grit
Trekking through the rows of houses 
Children, lovers, mamas n papas
All gathered around together
Laughing, cooking 
Sayin grace,
 looking at family pictures 
 building stories
Nostalgia  in a thick, dreamy haze fills my brain 
as I walk alone
been here before
The fiery maple leaves 
crest in waves 
 perfect wrought iron fence
 protects a brightly lit house 
 blinking red and gold lights 
 electric candy 
 this time of year
 excitement 
 misery
 so lonesome 
I could cry
 the well's run dry 
I was an ocean
 nourishing 
Endless
Always a cowgirl
Don't fence me in 
and I will be a river